New Blog.

I'll start by saying my name is Scarlet. Im 23 years old and yesterday I was told that I have ovarian cancer.

I am beyond terrified. And I have cried over a million tears since I heard those dreaded words. I decided I would start a new blog. To keep everyone up to date, as well as to help myself cope with this whole thing. Im having a really hard time right now dealing with this.
I dont think its fair that I have cancer. Im 23. Im young. Im healthy. I want to get pregnant and have babies. I dont want to fight this. I dont want to be told theres a chance I might die before I get to fall madly in love, get married, travel to tropical beaches and have curly haired babies. I hate it.

If you'd have asked me last week where I saw myself in five years.. I'd have told you I saw myself married. A home owner to a big house with a front porch where I could sit outside and read. And pregnant, or raising my baby.
I would have never guessed I'd tell you I'd be battling ovarian cancer- at the age of 23.. when my life is just getting ready to start.

This didnt just come as a surprise. If you know me, You know that I was told last Jan. That I had a cyst on my ovary. The specialist was monitoring it, but it had eventually grown to the size where it needed to be removed. I went under the knife on September 28th, 2010 and I had the cyst removed. The specialist/surgeon informed my parents that she felt it was benign . And I was relieved.

However yesterday morning I recieved a phone call asking if I could be back in the city that afternoon for an appointment with my specialist. I said no, It was a 3 hour drive and I was at work untill 5pm.
The doctor then made the decision to tell me over the phone that I indeed had cancer. She gave me the medical name for it, but to be honest I dont remember what it was. It is located in my ovary though. And it is the type of cancer that can spread. We wont know untill November 8th how bad it really is.

Im going to stop now. Because I again am overwhelmed with tears in my eyes.

I guess so far what Ive learnt.. is that life is short. Tell your friends and family you love them. And never go to sleep angry.

Bye for now.
-S